Celebrations And Competitions

I was at a 50th birthday party last night for my best friend Nigel. I've known him for 25 years and his wife organised the party for him. Following on this he is going to Las Vegas for a few days so that should be amazing for him. It was nice to catch up with his family as, like other families they have their problems getting on with other members of the family but everyone enjoyed themselves.

Things have been good so far, but the weather has been bad, but not as bad as other areas of the country. It has been raining all day here today and we have not been out anywhere but as I write this it looks like there's a bit of blue sky trying to poke through though maybe a little late!

I won a competition last week too! There's a web site called Super Deluxe Edition that review and put on the site all things about album releases and special edition packages of albums with extra discs of unreleased stuff, remixes ect. Anyhow, there was a competition to win a Nillson box set of his albums and I won it! I was really chuffed so now I'm waiting for it to arrive so I can listen to it, I can't wait. It gives me a push to enter more competition now too!

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Easing Into The New Year

So far the first couple of weeks have been ok. Work been busy as we have been doing prototypes for the show in Birmingham which opens this Sunday. I don't think I've ever known it to be so chaotic as it has been regarding protos. They didn't know what was going until last minute and then becomes a rush. At least that is done now and begins the catching up at work as it has put us behind with all the production, we have been here before!

Still not been back to the gym yet, just can't seem to get myself there, or even show any enthusiasm to go, I will, it is just a mind set I have to sort. I looked at myself in the mirror and I'm looking fat in all the wrong places which is depressing. I have got some ideas for recipes for losing weight so they are going to be tried for my dinners at work! Nigella does a great butternut squash and sweet potato soup with is really nice, so will do more of that!

The last few days my back has been playing up with the old injury I carry with it, I don't know what has set it off but it kept waking me up last night so I'm sat with a water bottle on my back warming it through and hopefully will sort it out! It's one thing after another, shows how unfit I am though! I was asked to go running last week from a guy I follow of Twitter, I declined but that is another goal to aim for, if I can get my arse out of the chair!

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First Few Days Of The New Year

The first few days have been uneventful thankfully, but tomorrow is the start of a full week back at work. I need a haircut badly so I need to book in to get it cut. All the Christmas decorations are now back in the loft all packed and waiting for next Christmas. I seem to collect more and more Xmas decorations, ornaments ect but never seem to get them all out. I need to be firm with myself and get rid of the stuff that doesn't get used. I think there's at least 3 garlands, maybe 4 but only room for two!

The diet has sort of started today, well we are slowly stopping all the eating, or a lot of the sweets and cheese has gone finally. I have to slowly get into the idea of diet and also drag Vinny along with it too so he loses a bit of weight too! I'm just under 14 stone and I found a print out from this time 2012 and I was 12st 6lb which has depressed me a lot. I have been sorting all my clothes out today and have put the fitted tops and slim fitting stuff as I can't get into it or I really want to wear it when I get my shape back. There's low cut v t shirts and polo shirts that did look ok when I was a bit slimmer. Here's to 2014!

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Happy New Year Everyone

As I write this it is almost January the 1st 2014. I look towards the new year with optimism and with all what has gone on regarding myself, all I can say is ''Bring It On.'' I think I have been through a bit of a depression regarding how I have felt over the last few months. A lot of things have upset me, pissed me off and it could be the least little thing and I have wanted to basically cry. I was in Tesco's with Vince Christmas shopping and was going down the escalator with piped Christmas music in the store and I just wanted to cry, I felt so down. I struggle to say if it was depression or just feeling sorry for myself when there has been two people I was close to who have died just before Xmas of cancer, so I feel like I should be saying to stop acting like a twat!

So I look towards the start of the New Year with the my words of wisdom, "Live Every Day" and try to fill every day this year doing something really useful, or to justify to myself that it is useful. I have basically sat on my arse and not been to the gym, so that is where all my focus is going in 2014. Tomorrow morning I am going to get weighed and measured and get this carcase back on it's diet! I see all these photo's of guys with fit bodies thinking I really want to look like that but then as I look at these I'm sat on my arse, at the computer eating! I am making resolutions like everyone else but I seriously need to stick to them, I really need to, I just can keep going on the way I am, for my health, my life and my sanity. Wish me luck everyone.

I just want to wish whoever reads this occasional post a happy new year and if you read it, how about leaving me a message just to say you read it! Stay safe in 2014

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Making A Comeback

I guess you can say I'm in a rut!

For the last couple of months I think I'm just feeling sorry for myself and fed up, of the way I feel and I seem to just want to not do anything. I need a good kick up the arse and get back into gear and be more positive and move forward with things. Work has got me fed up too, I had a good holiday and things started going wrong after I got back from my holiday. We were short of people on the late shift and put more pressure on me to keep the job somehow moving, then when the guy came back from his holiday the poor sod collapsed and had another 3 weeks off work. So to say it has been stressful isn't a joke!

So it has taken a few weeks to catch up and to be honest I was coping with it all, keeping cheerful and not let things get to me, but the last couple of weeks suddenly have got to when I can't hold things together and have got to me, well that is how I feel although things have gone well and we caught up at work. It has just taken it's toll on me. I'm knackered just want to sleep, don't want to do anything but sit by the computer and just look at nothing all night. I've not been to the gym since my summer holiday and I can tell, my weight is increasing and I'M FED UP!

So I need to plan to go to the gym, get back into it, start getting back into shape and hopefully start to get back to my old self again. Wish me luck please!

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A Few Days Off

It's Friday and I'm towards the end of my week off on holiday from work. It's been a good rest, not done a great deal but sometimes doing nothing is just what you need! Had a breakdown with the boiler this week and basically they got the boiler working but I need a new boiler. The old boiler is old, they have stopped making any spare parts for the thing and they stopped producing it in 1996 so I have a guy from British Gas coming to see me in a couple of weeks. I'm going to have to look at getting a new one, what happens if it breaks down in winter and I'm stuck to get it repaired, all I know is it is going to cost at least £1500!

Went to see Julian Clary last night at New Theatre here in Hull. I really enjoyed it and it was a good laugh, he is so quick witted and always has some sort of an answer or joke when it is needed. Last time I saw Julian was in a gay pub in Soho called Rupert Street. He walked past me, in make up but he looked great and so tall too!

One of my harddrives crashed this week and I almost lost everything on it, Vince has managed to recover a lot of stuff, music, photo's and documents. I'm going to look at taking everything off and put them onto a Blu ray disc or two to back up then format the harddrive, hopefully that will sort out the problem on it. You don't realise just how much you collect over the years and how many duplicates you make. I like to make compilation albums and there are loads of albums I've made and you can tell the mood I was in at the time of making them!

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Nice Day For A Ride

I went for a ride this morning, I was waiting for Vince to get back so we could go into town so I jumped on the bike and went out for an hour. My knee has been playing up again but has eased off a bit so I went to try it out. I did the usual route which I usually find helps blow the cobwebs off and today was no exception! It was sunny and warmish but the wind was quite strong so half the ride was ok and the rest was against a strong wind. Why can't I just have a good ride without killing myself due to a strong head wind. There was the road works too, which I had to ride as fast as I could so that I didn't stop the traffic behind me. I did enjoy the ride though and I hope that the weather is ok for me to go for a ride tomorrow, preferably without the wind!

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