Happy New Year Everyone

As I write this it is almost January the 1st 2014. I look towards the new year with optimism and with all what has gone on regarding myself, all I can say is ''Bring It On.'' I think I have been through a bit of a depression regarding how I have felt over the last few months. A lot of things have upset me, pissed me off and it could be the least little thing and I have wanted to basically cry. I was in Tesco's with Vince Christmas shopping and was going down the escalator with piped Christmas music in the store and I just wanted to cry, I felt so down. I struggle to say if it was depression or just feeling sorry for myself when there has been two people I was close to who have died just before Xmas of cancer, so I feel like I should be saying to stop acting like a twat!

So I look towards the start of the New Year with the my words of wisdom, "Live Every Day" and try to fill every day this year doing something really useful, or to justify to myself that it is useful. I have basically sat on my arse and not been to the gym, so that is where all my focus is going in 2014. Tomorrow morning I am going to get weighed and measured and get this carcase back on it's diet! I see all these photo's of guys with fit bodies thinking I really want to look like that but then as I look at these I'm sat on my arse, at the computer eating! I am making resolutions like everyone else but I seriously need to stick to them, I really need to, I just can keep going on the way I am, for my health, my life and my sanity. Wish me luck everyone.

I just want to wish whoever reads this occasional post a happy new year and if you read it, how about leaving me a message just to say you read it! Stay safe in 2014

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Making A Comeback

I guess you can say I'm in a rut!

For the last couple of months I think I'm just feeling sorry for myself and fed up, of the way I feel and I seem to just want to not do anything. I need a good kick up the arse and get back into gear and be more positive and move forward with things. Work has got me fed up too, I had a good holiday and things started going wrong after I got back from my holiday. We were short of people on the late shift and put more pressure on me to keep the job somehow moving, then when the guy came back from his holiday the poor sod collapsed and had another 3 weeks off work. So to say it has been stressful isn't a joke!

So it has taken a few weeks to catch up and to be honest I was coping with it all, keeping cheerful and not let things get to me, but the last couple of weeks suddenly have got to when I can't hold things together and have got to me, well that is how I feel although things have gone well and we caught up at work. It has just taken it's toll on me. I'm knackered just want to sleep, don't want to do anything but sit by the computer and just look at nothing all night. I've not been to the gym since my summer holiday and I can tell, my weight is increasing and I'M FED UP!

So I need to plan to go to the gym, get back into it, start getting back into shape and hopefully start to get back to my old self again. Wish me luck please!

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A Few Days Off

It's Friday and I'm towards the end of my week off on holiday from work. It's been a good rest, not done a great deal but sometimes doing nothing is just what you need! Had a breakdown with the boiler this week and basically they got the boiler working but I need a new boiler. The old boiler is old, they have stopped making any spare parts for the thing and they stopped producing it in 1996 so I have a guy from British Gas coming to see me in a couple of weeks. I'm going to have to look at getting a new one, what happens if it breaks down in winter and I'm stuck to get it repaired, all I know is it is going to cost at least £1500!

Went to see Julian Clary last night at New Theatre here in Hull. I really enjoyed it and it was a good laugh, he is so quick witted and always has some sort of an answer or joke when it is needed. Last time I saw Julian was in a gay pub in Soho called Rupert Street. He walked past me, in make up but he looked great and so tall too!

One of my harddrives crashed this week and I almost lost everything on it, Vince has managed to recover a lot of stuff, music, photo's and documents. I'm going to look at taking everything off and put them onto a Blu ray disc or two to back up then format the harddrive, hopefully that will sort out the problem on it. You don't realise just how much you collect over the years and how many duplicates you make. I like to make compilation albums and there are loads of albums I've made and you can tell the mood I was in at the time of making them!

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Nice Day For A Ride

I went for a ride this morning, I was waiting for Vince to get back so we could go into town so I jumped on the bike and went out for an hour. My knee has been playing up again but has eased off a bit so I went to try it out. I did the usual route which I usually find helps blow the cobwebs off and today was no exception! It was sunny and warmish but the wind was quite strong so half the ride was ok and the rest was against a strong wind. Why can't I just have a good ride without killing myself due to a strong head wind. There was the road works too, which I had to ride as fast as I could so that I didn't stop the traffic behind me. I did enjoy the ride though and I hope that the weather is ok for me to go for a ride tomorrow, preferably without the wind!

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X-Ray Hopes

I had the X-rays taken on my knee on Wednesday morning, managed to get in 15 minutes earlier than the appointment time so I was more or less in and out of the hospital. I had to laugh to myself as, even though it was my knee getting an x-ray, I still had to change and put an hospital gown on even though I was stood up to get have the x-ray taken. It's going to be another 7-10 days before the doctor get's the results so I don't know how long it will take for the physio to get back in touch. They had the x-rays at the hospital as they were checking them before I got dressed, I could have taken them to my doctors and saved them the hassle. Also my knee was really hurting the night before the hospital visit so I really hope it shows in the X-ray!

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A Long Weekend Break

At last, after ringing up the physio again to find out why I hadn't had an x-ray appointment, an appointment turned up yesterday. I rang them to find out why I hadn't heard anything and I find out that the hospital never received the request from the physio, so I had to start it again and they have rushed it through. The appointment is for Wednesday 8th May at 9am so I won't be going to work to start with, but hopefully should get there for about 11am hopefully. Finally things are moving enough to get closer to getting my knee sorted and I just hope it is as quick to get the results and to get it worked on and repaired!

I have a long weekend which I'm pleased about just for the time from work and to chill out. I've got nothing planned but I will be going to the gym and the usual wander around town and no doubt will involve a coffee and a muffin at some point! The weather is supposed to be nice, so it might be bbq time I hope, but I just want it warm enough for me to wear my shorts, I don't ask for much!

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The Weekend Is Over

I'm sat here just getting stuff ready for work and I'm wondering just where the weekend has gone! It has been another cold weekend, it was raining and hailstones fell whilst we were in town shopping and I just wonder if we are ever going to get any good weather? Had a couple of good workouts this weekend, getting used to the new gym now, it's not as good as Fitness First but it's ok for what I need. I've yet to go on a night time but I have to this week, I need to start getting a proper workout routine in place. I have spoken to a guy who used to be at the old gym about personal training which he is happy to do, but I'm still waiting on the X-ray for my knee. Once I have that sorted I can make plans about PT training.

April has been a really expensive month for me with so many birthdays and bills to pay, so I'm looking forward to May and to try and get some saving done, before you know it Christmas will be here again and I will be in the same state as I always am! I have vowed to make sure Christmas is paid for early so that there's money left for us so that we can enjoy the festivities too!

A friend of mine has asked why I don't set up a Twitter page for my bear Five, I as thinking about it as I could use it as my alter-ego and say the things I would like to say, or not! I'll think it over and just maybe do it and see just how many followers he gets. On Flickr, I always get asked about him and keep getting odd messages about why there's no photo's of him and the boys so he is popular on there!

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